I Feel So Alone 😦
My best friend and my boyfriend both left for college today. I didn’t cry when I said goodbye to my best friend at 8 AM in the pouring rain, but I cried a lot when I said goodbye to my boyfriend at 11:30 AM in the sunshine.
My best friend is going to school in San Diego, which is a road trip away from me in NorCal. My boyfriend and I, however, will be 2,000 miles apart when I move to campus mid-September. We decided last night to go on hiatus instead of attempting long distance. My best friend and her boyfriend– who happens to be my boyfriend’s good friend– are going to attempt a long distance relationship. He is going to school in Southern Illinois. More on that later.
I have 24 days until I move out to California. Two of my favorite people in the whole wide world are gone. I’m not in school with my siblings, and I’m not in college yet. I’m in limbo. And it’s sucky and weird.
I figure, however, that these next 24 days can be really great. I have an opportunity to spend 24 days with myself and really get to know who I am. I’ve decided to spend each day doing something for myself, whether it’s making a craft, getting my nails done, working a full work day, running 6 miles, spending the day with my sister, taking a spontaneous trip to Chicago to watch the waves roll in on Lake Michigan, what have you.
If all goes to plan, I’ll reflect on these next 24 days right here in this blog. If all doesn’t go to plan and I end up binged out on Netflix and cake, then please call for help and send them to my house. Thank you.